TRUE! — nervous — very, very dreadfully nervous I had been and am; but why
will you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened my senses — not
destroyed — not dulled them. Above all was the sense of hearing acute. I
heard all things in the heaven and in the earth. I heard many things in
hell. How, then, am I mad? Hearken! and observe how healthily — how calmly I
can tell you the whole story.
It is impossible to say how first the idea entered my brain; but once
conceived, it haunted me day and night. Object there was none. Passion there
was none. I loved the old man. He had never wronged me. He had never given
me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think it was his eye! yes, it was
this! He had the eye of a vulture — a pale blue eye, with a film over it.
Whenever it fell upon me, my blood ran cold; and so by degrees — very
gradually — I made up my mind to take the life of the old man, and thus rid
myself of the eye forever.
Now this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know nothing. But you should
have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I proceeded — with what
caution — with what foresight — with what dissimulation I went to work! I
was never kinder to the old man than during the whole week before I killed
him. And every night, about midnight, I turned the latch of his door and
opened it — oh so gently! And then, when I had made an opening sufficient
for my head, I put in a dark lantern, all closed, closed, so that no light
shone out, and then I thrust in my head. Oh, you would have laughed to see
how cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it slowly — very, very slowly, so that
I might not disturb the old man's sleep. It took me an hour to place my
whole head within the opening so far that I could see him as he lay upon his
bed. Ha! — would a madman have been so wise as this? And then, when my head
was well in the room, I undid the lantern cautiously — oh, so cautiously —
cautiously (for the hinges creaked) — I undid it just so much that a single
thin ray fell upon the vulture eye. And this I did for seven long nights —
every night just at midnight — but I found the eye always closed; and so it
was impossible to do the work; for it was not the old man who vexed me, but
his Evil Eye. And every morning, when the day broke, I went boldly into the
chamber, and spoke courageously to him, calling him by name in a hearty
tone, and inquiring how he has passed the night. So you see he would have
been a very profound old man, indeed, to suspect that every night, just at
twelve, I looked in upon him while he slept.
Upon the eighth night I was more than usually cautious in opening the door.
A watch's minute hand moves more quickly than did mine. Never before that
night had I felt the extent of my own powers — of my sagacity. I could
scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think that there I was, opening
the door, little by little, and he not even to dream of my secret deeds or
thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the idea; and perhaps he heard me; for he
moved on the bed suddenly, as if startled. Now you may think that I drew
back — but no. His room was as black as pitch with the thick darkness, (for
the shutters were close fastened, through fear of robbers,) and so I knew
that he could not see the opening of the door, and I kept pushing it on
steadily, steadily.
I had my head in, and was about to open the lantern, when my thumb slipped
upon the tin fastening, and the old man sprang up in bed, crying out —
"Who's there?"
I kept quite still and said nothing. For a whole hour I did not move a
muscle, and in the meantime I did not hear him lie down. He was still
sitting up in the bed listening; — just as I have done, night after night,
hearkening to the death watches in the wall.
Presently I heard a slight groan, and I knew it was the groan of mortal
terror. It was not a groan of pain or of grief — oh, no! — it was the low
stifled sound that arises from the bottom of the soul when overcharged with
awe. I knew the sound well. Many a night, just at midnight, when all the
world slept, it has welled up from my own bosom, deepening, with its
dreadful echo, the terrors that distracted me. I say I knew it well. I knew
what the old man felt, and pitied him, although I chuckled at heart. I knew
that he had been lying awake ever since the first slight noise, when he had
turned in the bed. His fears had been ever since growing upon him. He had
been trying to fancy them causeless, but could not. He had been saying to
himself — "It is nothing but the wind in the chimney — it is only a mouse
crossing the floor," or "it is merely a cricket which has made a single
chirp." Yes, he had been trying to comfort himself with these suppositions:
but he had found all in vain. All in vain; because Death, in approaching him
had stalked with his black shadow before him, and enveloped the victim. And
it was the mournful influence of the unperceived shadow that caused him to
feel — although he neither saw nor heard — to feel the presence of my head
within the room.
When I had waited a long time, very patiently, without hearing him lie down,
I resolved to open a little — a very, very little crevice in the lantern. So
I opened it — you cannot imagine how stealthily, stealthily — until, at
length a single dim ray, like the thread of the spider, shot from out
the-crevice [[the crevice]] and fell full upon the vulture eye.
It was open — wide, wide open — and I grew furious as I gazed upon it. I saw
it with perfect distinctness — all a dull blue, with a hideous veil over it
that chilled the very marrow in my bones; but I could see nothing else of
the old man's face or person: for I had directed the ray as if by instinct,
precisely upon the damned spot.
And have I not told you that what you mistake for madness is but over
acuteness of the senses? — now, I say, there came to my ears a low, dull,
quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I knew that
sound well, too. It was the beating of the old man's heart. It increased my
fury, as the beating of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage.
But even yet I refrained and kept still. I scarcely breathed. I held the
lantern motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain the ray upon the
eye. Meantime the hellish tattoo of the heart increased. It grew quicker and
quicker, and louder and louder every instant. The old man's terror must have
been extreme! It grew louder, I say, louder every moment! — do you mark me
well? I have told you that I am nervous: so I am. And now at the dead hour
of the night, amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange a
noise as this excited me to uncontrollable terror. Yet, for some minutes
longer I refrained and stood still. But the beating grew louder, louder! I
thought the heart must burst. And now a new anxiety seized me — the sound
would be heard by a neighbour! The old man's hour had come! With a loud
yell, I threw open the lantern and leaped into the room. He shrieked once —
once only. In an instant I dragged him to the floor, and pulled the heavy
bed over him. I then smiled gaily, to find the deed so far done. But, for
many minutes, the heart beat on with a muffled sound. This, however, did not
vex me; it would not be heard through the wall. At length it ceased. The old
man was dead. I removed the bed and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone,
stone dead. I placed my hand upon the heart and held it there many minutes.
There was no pulsation. He was stone dead. His eye would trouble me no more.
If still you think me mad, you will think so no longer when I describe the
wise precautions I took for the concealment of the body. The night waned,
and I worked hastily, but in silence. First of all I dismembered the corpse.
I cut off the head and the arms and the legs.
I then took up three planks from the flooring of the chamber, and deposited
all between the scantlings. I then replaced the boards so cleverly, so
cunningly, that no human eye — not even his — could have detected any thing
wrong. There was nothing to wash out — no stain of any kind — no blood-spot
whatever. I had been too wary for that. A tub had caught all — ha! ha!
When I had made an end of these labors, it was four o'clock — still dark as
midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there came a knocking at the street
door. I went down to open it with a light heart, — for what had I now to
fear? There entered three men, who introduced themselves, with perfect
suavity, as officers of the police. A shriek had been heard by a neighbour
during the night; suspicion of foul play had been aroused; information had
been lodged at the police office, and they (the officers) had been deputed
to search the premises.
I smiled, — for what had I to fear? I bade the gentlemen welcome. The
shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old man, I mentioned, was absent
in the country. I took my visitors all over the house. I bade them search —
search well. I led them, at length, to his chamber. I showed them his
treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the enthusiasm of my confidence, I
brought chairs into the room, and desired them here to rest from their
fatigues, while I myself, in the wild audacity of my perfect triumph, placed
my own seat upon the very spot beneath which reposed the corpse of the
victim.
The officers were satisfied. My manner had convinced them. I was singularly
at ease. They sat, and while I answered cheerily, they chatted of familiar
things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting pale and wished them gone. My
head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my ears: but still they sat and still
chatted. The ringing became more distinct: — it continued and became more
distinct: I talked more freely to get rid of the feeling: but it continued
and gained definiteness — until, at length, I found that the noise was not
within my ears.
No doubt I now grew very pale; — but I talked more fluently, and with a
heightened voice. Yet the sound increased — and what could I do? It was a
low, dull, quick sound — much such a sound as a watch makes when enveloped
in cotton. I gasped for breath — and yet the officers heard it not. I talked
more quickly — more vehemently; but the noise steadily increased. I arose
and argued about trifles, in a high key and with violent gesticulations; but
the noise steadily increased. Why would they not be gone? I paced the floor
to and fro with heavy strides, as if excited to fury by the observations of
the men — but the noise steadily increased. Oh God! what could I do? I
foamed — I raved — I swore! I swung the chair upon which I had been sitting,
and grated it upon the boards, but the noise arose over all and continually
increased. It grew louder — louder — louder! And still the men chatted
pleasantly, and smiled. Was it possible they heard not? Almighty God! — no,
no! They heard! — they suspected! — they knew! — they were making a mockery
of my horror! — this I thought, and this I think. But anything was better
than this agony! Anything was more tolerable than this derision! I could
bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die!
— and now — again! — hark! louder! louder! louder! louder! —
"Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no more! I admit the deed! — tear up the
planks! — here, here! — it is the beating of his hideous heart!"
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